Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Boredom.
When you have school, you complain of lack of sleep.
When you have no school, you complain of boredom.
For me, I complain of boredom and lack of sleep in the hols. @.@
Stupid. First week of holidays and tomorrow is the only day I won't need to wake up early. RAWR.
I'm sleepy.
And I'm so bored.
I'm too lazy to pack for Chong Qing. Gah. I should be diligently packing right now. Ah whatever, I'll do it in half an hour.
Yesterday was screwed.
It was the only training I could go the whole thing for in Nov, and I was supposed to have sandcastle duty after at 2PM. That's what they said!
Yippee. In the afternoon of Monday, they said 9am. Awesome. I go for netball for half an hour.
Shoot.
So I go netball and half an hour is nothing but warm-ups for them. So I go and shoot.
Then I rushed off to change my fbts to PE SHORTS (haven' t worn those in ages) and damn, it was uncomfortable. The fact that I was wearing CCH socks to training was NOT helping.
I go over to concourse and got a little excited to go.
Then I tell Mr Chia JUST before we go, that I couldn't go next friday (the actual day of facilitating) and he said bye bye to me. Wow. Way to make a girl feel welcome.
So I smile and laugh it off and say bye.
I laugh at keith though, for having to suffer.
I go for netball, not explaining my situation to anyone in particular. Had some drills that were boring, also some fitness (ZZZ) I got pretty tired and my head pounded and I had the need to drink water often so training wasn't that enjoyable. In the end, I also felt pretty hungry. Everybody was like, "Are you okay?" thrice or something. Okay wait, that was Coach. LOL.
I finally get home, eating at Lucky and going crazy with the team and the juniors there. HAHAHAH. I NOW KNOW YOUR SECRETS, SERJEAN AND SIYU! :P
I won't tell council board. I think. HAHAH.
So okay, moving on.
I go home and Mum says we need go out get my jeans. We go shopping and I get so damn pooped. Recently went shopping often and I'm damn happy for all the new clothes I'm getting but I get so sick and tired of trying out clothes and GOSH, walking. Damn those slippers yesterday with no support. My feet hurt!
Today went to school, kenna pangsehed (okay, not really) by Mabel cos she was sick. Worked out the script. Blah blah blah. One hour later I leave school for home~
Saw Sudarno while walking out. He had some weird smile plastered on his face,haha.
Then I walk out halfway, it rained. I started running. Then it full-out poured. I full-out sprinted.
Whoo! First time running in the rain!
Went 7-11 buy some nice nice food, waited for mum, sat car go home.
Played computer till sian.
Cos I read all the fanfics I wanted to and it got sorta boring. I should get around to writing, or to playing maple at one point, when I'm desperate. Oh yeah, and relinking and skinning and graphic designing and trying audition. Ahuh.
When I'm up to it.
Cos I seriously have nothing to do, I'm blogging. What an awesome way to spend 10min. HAHAHA.
I'm so addicted to Jump then Fall and Future Love right now.
~HSINTUNG[:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Advice I'm not so sure I follow myself.
Made it to the team.My name was the last to be said.
And I haven't said this to anyone, but I was so hoping to be in.
I was so hoping that I wouldn't be out.
I was so hoping, even if I thought I wouldn't get to play.
Cos if I don't make it, I'll break.
I can't imagine if I don't play.
At the end of every game, I feel so useless and I tear up cos I didn't get that chance.
Right now, I feel relieved to be in.
I promise I'll train sooooo hard to be up for it.
I'll shoot each time I go to school.
I'm going to shoot tomorrow too.
And maybe before training on Tuesday.
I feel pressured to.
I was so freaked out during the game when Coach said that how we played then would determine if we were in or out.
I was so freaked out that I couldn't shoot. Six chances and I had about three shots in? Ugh.
What happened to silents, really??!
Enough about emo-ing for netball.
Yesterday's duty was sooooooooooo fun.
Bimbo fighting with Cherylmine was sooooooo funny! HAHAHAH. She is so naturally bimbotic I tell you.
Whack her on the head and all her brain cells die!XD
Cherylmine and You Min are despo! Hock Jin and Li Kai saw for themselves:O
I hung out with the juniors during refreshments. They're really easy to talk to and very outgoing. These juniors rock!
Refreshments tasted awesome! A lot of people kop-ed food:O
Friday was PTC.
Gosh that duty was kinda boring but when there were little parents, everyone slacked(SHH!) and we sat down to chat.
Claudia was nice to talk to.
Guan Yu was awesome to bully(you should try bullying him one day!:D)
Winnie was very nice to talk to:D
I miss Winnie and See Kim, who've gone for Cambodia!Aww, it's only been one day:(
So in order to see them, I guess I'll try to go open house for the first hour? IDK! I'll just go mingle before going Chongqing.
YAY!
To the pessimist:
if you flash forward
see the awesome future
will you reconsider
think it all over
for the brighter future?
cos some things are worth living for
some things are worth believing in
faith and hope exist for some reason
not only for the insecure.
That's just my belief. Consider that for a new start. Be wary but don't turn weary.
(P.S That really seems like awesome material for a song.)
To the other sad person:
Everytime you smile, I smile
And everytime you shine, I'll shine for you.
-Jump then fall, Taylor Swift
I don't think we should live for the other person. Sure, follow his/her ups and downs.
But don't get so obsessed.
"Why are you so obsessed with me, boy?"-Obsessed, Mariah Carey
That's what they'll ask. You've probably been asked something like that before.
Sometimes people change. Relationships don't work out.
"People are people and sometimes we change our minds. But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.""It's the kind of end that you don't really wanna see."
"People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out. Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fallout..."
-Breathe, Taylor Swift
Live your own life and maybe it's time to move on. That person will stay in your heart forever.
Imprinted.
But you'll find another person who's more worth it, more dominant in your heart one day.
To both of you:
If you feel angry at me for writing this, you can smack me:P
<33,hsintung.
♥HSINTUNG:D
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Crazy school.
School is KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLING me.
Mon: Duty for class-bonding.
Tues(TODAY): Walkathon/70rounds
Wed: Rehearsal?
Thurs: Training+discussion for cq
Fri: Hmm. I don't know. Most likely go buy stuff for CQ.
ZZZ.Good thing I was supposed to run today. Or I wouldn't have survived a 4km walk. Fine it's a walk, but it's still 4km. They said walk a bit further can reach suntec liao. WHOO.
So instead, we slacked around waiting for our ONE round around the lake. YAY~ So what we do. We sit, talk, play ball, get caught, sit and talk again. HAHAH. I lent my ball, no wait, my NETBALL, to guys, they kick and throw it in dirt and abandon it. Whee. I ought to save my really clean ball from guys. They kick until the dirt is UNBEARABLE.
I feel so so so dirty right now. From netball I mean. Gah. Why is the court (and the balls) so freakin' dirty?? Gosh, I completely suggest a Clean-the-Court-And-Netballs-And-Whatever session. We can save ourselves a lot of water and detergent from washing clothes so much. REALLY.
Talking about netball, I feel depressed.
Yeah whatever, I can play five positions.
I'm not particularly happy.
(I want to be able to play all seven. But if I'm not offered the chance, I guess five is good enough. )
Yet, who cares about that right now when I should be worrying about MAKING it into the team?!
There are wayyy too many pro people in the cca, and wayyy too little people allowed to play for the tournament/school. It's fun. It used to be JUST nice. Now, it's too many. Heck, everyone says I'll make it.
I'll die if I don't make the team.
But I'll die a harder death if I make the team, and am not put in.
Do you REALISE how freakin' big a giant insult that is?! To be a reserve, when apparently you're supposed to be able to play better than others? Oh yeah awesome. I can shoot, I can pass okay, I can run, I got the stamina, I got speed, I improved in my shooter movements BLAHBLAHBLAH. That's what everyone says. Okay, yeah, I get my hopes up. I make the team. Whoopee. Then? I go to EVERY match, EVERY training. So then? I sit at each game, watching them play. I watch others umpire. Whee. How great! All sarcasm intended.
I want to learn, I want the opportunities. If I'm stuck by the side, being a RESERVE, I'd rather not be in the team. You know? As I've said, too many people who are up to it. If you're abandoning me to one corner, being important only if I refill water bottles, score and take stats, I'd really rather someone else be up to it be there instead. I don't get to play all four quarters, but if someone else enters the team, and can play one or two quarters, let her in. KICK ME OUT. I'd still come for training probably. Unless I decide to swop CCA. But my friends there make it worth it. See? I'd take the feeling of rejection than have my hopes go up and get sent down crashing; BREAKING INTO A MILLION PIECES. What's the point? Out of approximately 28 quarters, I play 2. While the others play 20+. AHUH. While I'm supposed to be able to play. I don't get why I'm there really. Is it cos you guys need a runner and I just fit that bill? Gosh. I don't even want to show attitude, cos really: In what position am I supposed to show attitude? I can scold and kick and cry on this blog, but who listens? Who am I to tell them, hey, I'm supposed to be playing? You know, if you let me play 7 quarters, one in each game, I'd be contented. I don't want to be in the corner waiting for one of them to be injured or run out of stamina. It's the wrong reason to be happy to be able to play.
To quote a nice example, out of four quarters today (i think for trials for school team) I played one. Plus, it was the last one. Nice effort to put me in, no? While I see Joey playing 2, Jiale playing 2, Felicia playing 3 and a half, Jiehui playing I think all. Anna plays one and umpires the game. Others play all. Wow. Brilliant.
AND, my position was the slackest I suppose I could play. Goal Shooter. I'm limited to one third for running. Hmm. I got to talk to Blossom. The ball come already then I stop Blossom from running, I free up my space. I run when there's space. I get close to the pole, I shoot. I think I got all silent. Hmm. Nice effort I suppose. I felt happy playing. But really. GS? Last quarter? Not very willing to play me. Some trial. I didn't get blown for any breaking of rules. Most is one bad asking of pass. Apparently I had good shots. So explain. Maybe you confirm want me in team so don't want let me play? Wow. Or I sure cannot make it? Hmm.
I just feel resentful. Not specifically at the people. More specifically, myself. Maybe the lack of a FIXED position pushes me to be backup. Since I'm all-rounded, as reserve, I can prove to fill up nearly any position. When that person can't play. But, if I'm playing, and that person can't play, you can swop me to play what. See? I don't see the sense in being able to do something, yet being thrown aside like an abandoned toy. Like my D&T toy today.
I think netball's gonna eat me. I really want to go for training on thursday. But I have my chongqing discussion. Yet, if I skip that, I'll screw up. So I need to go for that. I guess I'll go half each. Cos I'm not willing to skip one of them for the other. I also want to know who makes the team.
Chongqing's eating up all my events.At least five. I'm going there for STUDY. Grr. Maybe I should have just passed up the opportunity?XOXO.
Don't take offence if you think I'm resentful at you. All that crap is directed at me alone. I'm not attacking anyone.
<33,hsintung.
Lost.Broken.Need a place to fit in.
I guess right now, A Place in This World by Taylor Swift fits.
A Place in This World (TAYLOR SWIFT)
I'm alone.
On my own.
And that's all I know.
I'll be strong,
I'll be wrong,
Oh but life goes on...
Oh I'm just a girl...~
Tryin' ta' find a place in this world.
♥HSINTUNG:D
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Phew. In a desperate attempt to revive my desperately-dead blog(wow, alliteration!) I am desperately trying to update with a desperately lame post. That really shows how desperate I am, am I not?
To encapsulate, that was just a random line trying to tell you I'm attempting to revive my dead blog. LOL!
And brilliant. Now Keith's rubbing off on me. Alliteration as well as chim words like encapsulate (aka summarize)
Since I've been at home most of the time since I posted, I suppose I really have no life. But yeah, I choose to stay at home. So I choose a no life - life. DOTS.
Oh wait. I went out. On Tuesday.
Supposed to go kbox with Charmaine and Hsin Min after ACC(ultimate freedom,muahaha) but apparently there would be a section 0 outing on Tuesday as said by Jiawei. Charmaine then changes our plans and so on Monday, I went out with Charmaine and watched Surrogates, which is an awesome movie btw. That guy has brought a new record time to lightning-fast reflexes, I tell you. And he looks old. Wow. So okay, back to main point. Our section outing ended up in having 2 volleyball juniors which only Jiawei knows and 4 section 0 people (aka Keith, Jiawei, T.Winnie and me) After that, Keith has to walk out with Chong Yong and abandon me and Winnie. So we see Jiawei walking over to Grand Audi while we were talking to Keith demanding an explanation from Keith. So we follow. And he tells us his two juniors pangseh him cos sadly, one of them broke her phone. So me and winnie, we decide who cares anyway, no one's going so let's go eat!(despite the fact it was 10.30am) Jiawei tags along. Winnie and I talk the whole way out while Jiawei keeps asking where we're going (Even after we told him SINGPOST.) Jiawei stops and asks Winnie to hold his phone and wallet. Winnie nicely agrees to help. We then sprint all the way in front, laughing, when Winnie suggests we steal his phone and declare his sudden love to a certain person in the form of a Sony Ericsson Note on Standby mode(: Winnie passes the phone to me to type it out, cos she couldn't type while running. We reach the end of the street and realise Jiawei wasn't even chasing us =.="
After that crazy run, I got really self-high! HAHAHAH. We go over to Singpost. Getting off at Paya Lebar, we find Keith and Zhen An dropping off there too. So we had half a section going for a approximately 30sec walk to Paya Lebar MRT from the bus stop =.=" Winnie asks for Keith's phone, wanting a deja vu of what happened with Jiawei. Keith hands his phone over while Jiawei tries to persuade him otherwise. Winnie goes to one side and asks me to type again. I tell her to do it herself and walk all the way in front before Keith changes his mind and we couldn't find notes for Nokia. Disappointed, we try to make a break for it with his phone (XD)And Keith, looking angry, walked into the MRT station! We try to return the phone to him but he walks without a backward glance. We enlist Felicia's help in returning Keith's phone and on "high" mode, we go to Singpost;)
Couldn't decide on Macs, KFC and foodcourt since according to Jiawei , Macs is hot, KFC is cold and foodcourt is okay. And when we say, oh you want to eat KFC? He replies, no, I don't like cold. (DOTS.) So we eat food in the foodcourt(DUH!) I blast more than half my money on steak (which didn't taste nice) at 11am. It wasn't filling. Winnie noticed a yoghurt shop on our way in and we decide to eat there later. We prankcall Sandar(SORRY~!) and I vehemently deny that I am Hsin Tung and insist that I am Celine. She sees through me and I tell her I'm Charmaine. Winnie tells her we are at her condo and wants her to come down to open the gate as well as open up the games room for us to play pool(AHAHAH) Somehow I pretend to be Felicia shouting in the background angry at her.Hmm... I ended up being THREE people!Excluding myself. Not world record, but still.
After an early lunch, we eat MANGO yoghurt with strawberry topping cos Mac's ice cream is too fattening according to Winnie. It's exactly what I need, but oh well, we eat less fattening yoghurt from Slurp & Scoops. Or something like that. It tasted realllllllllllllly nice, but Jiawei couldn't stand the smell. I couldn't smell the yoghurt from the cup and he claims the smell is overwhelming!:O Winnie buys the same thing as me(:
We go back. Jiawei heads to the MRT station while Winnie walks over to the bus stop. I try to find my way home from Paya Lebar and decide to walk to City Plaza's bus stop to take what else, a bus. I catch up with Winnie and we talk along the way. Where we are supposed to walk in different directions, we find out we're both feeling guilty about the matter with Keith (we already sent an sms but he daos us!:@) so we call him. Nope, three calls on his mobile and no answer. We call his house and set it on loudspeaker. We apologise together over the phone and he tells us was pretending to be angry! We got cheated!:( We talk, 3 people on 2 lines for a minute. Winnie and I apologise profusely and finally we put the phone down. I hear someone laugh at us. Hmm... Were we funny/ cute/ weird? Okay weird. Since we were in front of a traffic light crossing and calling. Talking in sync! HAHAHAH.
So yeah. That's the end of a weekend. Did that style of writing confuse you?:O
I don't care. If you don't understand, reread :P
And blogger's way of showing text is irritating me. Hmmph.
<33,
HSINTUNG.
Desperate!
P.S Have a completely new url, with the skin created. Too lazy to code it, too lazy to relink and too lazy to care. HAHAH. Go, slacker!(:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Sunday, October 18, 2009
HSINTUNG IS BAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!
Ehehe. I'm feeling a tad bit guilty knowing it was AGES since I've updated.
Sorry it's just abit. XOXO. Blogging is boring for some random reason I don't really know.
Oh fine. I shall go randomly make a skin today and try to relink everyone(i think i'll die trying._.) and change link and go around saying new link and blahblahblah.
if there's one thing i really want to say, it's quoted from andrea:
"Even hair is complicated. Life sucks."
That's not exactly what she said, but close to it. :/
This occurred when andrea and I were discussing about hair, when to cut it, and how to cut it.
Sorry I've been obsessing about the style of hair XD
All the important EOYs have ended! (If you'd like to exclude ACC and HCL LC like I would)
Sorry to say, I never did attain my goal of not procrasinating. Slacking is just one natural ability that comes easily to me, I suppose:P Hopefully, I'll get over slacking soon @.@ Cos I really want to improve that crazy level position, and studied from 11 till 1am. Before an exam. Could someone whack me on the head for losing 3hours of which my brain cells recover the most quickly? Before an exam?!! But hey, IT'S OVER~! Planned outing with char and gorilla for tues, but turns up there's a random outing which has a lot of section zero people going, so it's like a section outing. However, there's probably only 3 or 4 (as of what I know now) who are going. YAY T.WINNIE! I HEART YOU FOR GOING~~ :D Of course I persuaded her, by telling her I was going;) Hehheh!
So, char is NICE and changed dates(<33) So I think we're going out another day. Yup.
Watch a movie! Yeah, saved a lot of money due to lack of recess hence I am sort of kind of rich. But I know I'll blast it all during outings. Let's see... Bowling,movies,arcade,iceskating(anyone?),rollerblading blah blah blah. I'm sorry I'm such a spendthrift. I always end up with no money:(
I really hate my blogskin right now :/
I suppose I'll change it soon.
And I guess that's the end of what happened that I actually recall! Which mostly are random ramblings so...????
I suppose that's the reason why I don't blog. It's a constant reminder of either #1: I don't have a life. OR #2: I can't recall. Which one do you think I fall under? HAHAH!(:
-HSINTUNG(:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Saturday, July 11, 2009
RAWR!
im back ahaha.
sorry for lack of updates.holidays spent playing maple while after school started no time,and weekends are now devoted to maple,and currently...my ADDICTION to the SoEul couple<3<3<3
haha.i got addicted over the hols.watched fanfic in the hols on youtube,and now found an uber cool website feat. stories from netizens which incl. the soeul couple ahaha!
not interested in relinking right now,I WANNA GET BACK TO READING!!!!ahaha
will change blog url as soon as i get addicted to blogging again.then i will relink!
was making skins in the hols too.had a blast knowing my skills had improved DRAMATICALLY over the hols,though i didnt update anything.made a soeul skin,and one feat. the hot kimbum haha.particularly loved the skins and the colours yah.cant wait till i code them and upload on blogskins!also need to make a skin for juiced. cos i havent done a thing for it yet!:O:O:O
this week was short.with a capital S.was dreading the week last weekend but hey,the week was short with a youth holiday in lieu on monday,and had a blast going out with shan!went out of league to buy clothes people probably dont expect me to wear(FLORAL PRINTS,no joke) so hey,i dunno.hahaha
school starting is BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD.
homework is piling on me,esp having to spam the holiday homework i didnt do in june!:O thankfully,they're all done now,but teachers are spamming homework!started eating lesser and lesser compared to june.i grew fatter in june(WHICH IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD) but now im growing thinner!*groans*
ytd was quite stressful,with the nearly-detention for changing seats.OMG I HATE MY SEAT.gah.and on thurs i didnt even sit where i WANTED to sit.so totally not worth it,since the AHEM teacher went about copying names seeing who changed places and handed them to mrs yang!WTH!if say our change of seats allow us to talk,but we wont talk during inappropriate times,i personally think it doesnt matter.unless you were saying like we laugh and laugh and dont listen to teacher that kind lah!and what the heck,i smsed mrs yang for her to move me to the front cos i study better in front and she made me sit at fourth row.she wouldnt let me,and said things like you're not exactly seated at the back but HEY,im in the second last row,and i count that as the BACK! most imptly,she stressed me out over the near-detention,targeted me for her stupid qns which put me on the spot since she knew i thought it was wrong to look for her,and submitted to to feeling guilty,nearly pushing me to TEARS,and she simply went on and on asking me.PLEASE LAH!go ask bingxian or ernest or michelle tan or shiyuan or wtv people was there.ALL her qns directed at me,and there was at least 4 lah what the freak.despite i was tearing DURING her lecture,and what the,she still aim me.worst?only two people asked how i was,and it didnt even really count.
sorry i had to rant on that last stuff,but i really felt like crying and wanted to go to the toilet to cry.eventually i walked around looking for a toilet with a cubicle with a WORKING LOCK(i tell you now,new block 2nd floor girl's toilet's cubicles' locks all dont work!!!) went up to third floor and found a cubicle.guess what?those tears dont wanna come out.so dumb right?found anna and chatted,went off to 7-11 in search of food to cheer me up(anna: didnt i cheer you up? haha) and instead of CHOCOLATE i got a cookie($1 and verrrrrrrrrrrry nice!) an oatmeal bar($1) and one yogurt wholemeal bar($1.20 which i didnt like zzz) guy made me wait so long to pay lah,and keep suggesting i buy more of the stuff i bought cos got promo ==
oh yah,i fell a lot on thurs.felt so spastard.fell in pe while JOGGING no less,and nearly fell on the way to singpost.as i was walking up the escalator from the toilet,i fell again,resulting in several injuries on thurs and going back to school on friday with a heart-shaped cut(YEAH!) and legs covered in purple iodine with countless of people asking me again why my leg was PURPLE!
oh yeahh.loved the sixtwuu gathering ahaha.next time we'll plan outdoors one,so gabriel cant bring his XBOX and HALO3!!!
sorry i know i was rambling ahaha.planned to stop at the friday stress thing but got diverted XD
-HSINTUNG(:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Thursday, May 21, 2009
thanks for whichever supporting tags.
previous post deleted.
things occupying my mind SUCKS.
but oh,
one thing rocks.
MYE IS OVER AND I GOT MY RESULTS BACK:D
and i unfortunately got my first C.
and i ruck(new word,dont ask!)
so dumb.my maple got stupid dumb issues:(
-hsintung
♥HSINTUNG:D
