Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Crazy school.
School is KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLING me.
Mon: Duty for class-bonding.
Tues(TODAY): Walkathon/70rounds
Wed: Rehearsal?
Thurs: Training+discussion for cq
Fri: Hmm. I don't know. Most likely go buy stuff for CQ.
ZZZ.Good thing I was supposed to run today. Or I wouldn't have survived a 4km walk. Fine it's a walk, but it's still 4km. They said walk a bit further can reach suntec liao. WHOO.
So instead, we slacked around waiting for our ONE round around the lake. YAY~ So what we do. We sit, talk, play ball, get caught, sit and talk again. HAHAH. I lent my ball, no wait, my NETBALL, to guys, they kick and throw it in dirt and abandon it. Whee. I ought to save my really clean ball from guys. They kick until the dirt is UNBEARABLE.
I feel so so so dirty right now. From netball I mean. Gah. Why is the court (and the balls) so freakin' dirty?? Gosh, I completely suggest a Clean-the-Court-And-Netballs-And-Whatever session. We can save ourselves a lot of water and detergent from washing clothes so much. REALLY.
Talking about netball, I feel depressed.
Yeah whatever, I can play five positions.
I'm not particularly happy.
(I want to be able to play all seven. But if I'm not offered the chance, I guess five is good enough. )
Yet, who cares about that right now when I should be worrying about MAKING it into the team?!
There are wayyy too many pro people in the cca, and wayyy too little people allowed to play for the tournament/school. It's fun. It used to be JUST nice. Now, it's too many. Heck, everyone says I'll make it.
I'll die if I don't make the team.
But I'll die a harder death if I make the team, and am not put in.
Do you REALISE how freakin' big a giant insult that is?! To be a reserve, when apparently you're supposed to be able to play better than others? Oh yeah awesome. I can shoot, I can pass okay, I can run, I got the stamina, I got speed, I improved in my shooter movements BLAHBLAHBLAH. That's what everyone says. Okay, yeah, I get my hopes up. I make the team. Whoopee. Then? I go to EVERY match, EVERY training. So then? I sit at each game, watching them play. I watch others umpire. Whee. How great! All sarcasm intended.
I want to learn, I want the opportunities. If I'm stuck by the side, being a RESERVE, I'd rather not be in the team. You know? As I've said, too many people who are up to it. If you're abandoning me to one corner, being important only if I refill water bottles, score and take stats, I'd really rather someone else be up to it be there instead. I don't get to play all four quarters, but if someone else enters the team, and can play one or two quarters, let her in. KICK ME OUT. I'd still come for training probably. Unless I decide to swop CCA. But my friends there make it worth it. See? I'd take the feeling of rejection than have my hopes go up and get sent down crashing; BREAKING INTO A MILLION PIECES. What's the point? Out of approximately 28 quarters, I play 2. While the others play 20+. AHUH. While I'm supposed to be able to play. I don't get why I'm there really. Is it cos you guys need a runner and I just fit that bill? Gosh. I don't even want to show attitude, cos really: In what position am I supposed to show attitude? I can scold and kick and cry on this blog, but who listens? Who am I to tell them, hey, I'm supposed to be playing? You know, if you let me play 7 quarters, one in each game, I'd be contented. I don't want to be in the corner waiting for one of them to be injured or run out of stamina. It's the wrong reason to be happy to be able to play.
To quote a nice example, out of four quarters today (i think for trials for school team) I played one. Plus, it was the last one. Nice effort to put me in, no? While I see Joey playing 2, Jiale playing 2, Felicia playing 3 and a half, Jiehui playing I think all. Anna plays one and umpires the game. Others play all. Wow. Brilliant.
AND, my position was the slackest I suppose I could play. Goal Shooter. I'm limited to one third for running. Hmm. I got to talk to Blossom. The ball come already then I stop Blossom from running, I free up my space. I run when there's space. I get close to the pole, I shoot. I think I got all silent. Hmm. Nice effort I suppose. I felt happy playing. But really. GS? Last quarter? Not very willing to play me. Some trial. I didn't get blown for any breaking of rules. Most is one bad asking of pass. Apparently I had good shots. So explain. Maybe you confirm want me in team so don't want let me play? Wow. Or I sure cannot make it? Hmm.
I just feel resentful. Not specifically at the people. More specifically, myself. Maybe the lack of a FIXED position pushes me to be backup. Since I'm all-rounded, as reserve, I can prove to fill up nearly any position. When that person can't play. But, if I'm playing, and that person can't play, you can swop me to play what. See? I don't see the sense in being able to do something, yet being thrown aside like an abandoned toy. Like my D&T toy today.
I think netball's gonna eat me. I really want to go for training on thursday. But I have my chongqing discussion. Yet, if I skip that, I'll screw up. So I need to go for that. I guess I'll go half each. Cos I'm not willing to skip one of them for the other. I also want to know who makes the team.
Chongqing's eating up all my events.At least five. I'm going there for STUDY. Grr. Maybe I should have just passed up the opportunity?XOXO.
Don't take offence if you think I'm resentful at you. All that crap is directed at me alone. I'm not attacking anyone.
<33,hsintung.
Lost.Broken.Need a place to fit in.
I guess right now, A Place in This World by Taylor Swift fits.
A Place in This World (TAYLOR SWIFT)
I'm alone.
On my own.
And that's all I know.
I'll be strong,
I'll be wrong,
Oh but life goes on...
Oh I'm just a girl...~
Tryin' ta' find a place in this world.
♥HSINTUNG:D
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Phew. In a desperate attempt to revive my desperately-dead blog(wow, alliteration!) I am desperately trying to update with a desperately lame post. That really shows how desperate I am, am I not?
To encapsulate, that was just a random line trying to tell you I'm attempting to revive my dead blog. LOL!
And brilliant. Now Keith's rubbing off on me. Alliteration as well as chim words like encapsulate (aka summarize)
Since I've been at home most of the time since I posted, I suppose I really have no life. But yeah, I choose to stay at home. So I choose a no life - life. DOTS.
Oh wait. I went out. On Tuesday.
Supposed to go kbox with Charmaine and Hsin Min after ACC(ultimate freedom,muahaha) but apparently there would be a section 0 outing on Tuesday as said by Jiawei. Charmaine then changes our plans and so on Monday, I went out with Charmaine and watched Surrogates, which is an awesome movie btw. That guy has brought a new record time to lightning-fast reflexes, I tell you. And he looks old. Wow. So okay, back to main point. Our section outing ended up in having 2 volleyball juniors which only Jiawei knows and 4 section 0 people (aka Keith, Jiawei, T.Winnie and me) After that, Keith has to walk out with Chong Yong and abandon me and Winnie. So we see Jiawei walking over to Grand Audi while we were talking to Keith demanding an explanation from Keith. So we follow. And he tells us his two juniors pangseh him cos sadly, one of them broke her phone. So me and winnie, we decide who cares anyway, no one's going so let's go eat!(despite the fact it was 10.30am) Jiawei tags along. Winnie and I talk the whole way out while Jiawei keeps asking where we're going (Even after we told him SINGPOST.) Jiawei stops and asks Winnie to hold his phone and wallet. Winnie nicely agrees to help. We then sprint all the way in front, laughing, when Winnie suggests we steal his phone and declare his sudden love to a certain person in the form of a Sony Ericsson Note on Standby mode(: Winnie passes the phone to me to type it out, cos she couldn't type while running. We reach the end of the street and realise Jiawei wasn't even chasing us =.="
After that crazy run, I got really self-high! HAHAHAH. We go over to Singpost. Getting off at Paya Lebar, we find Keith and Zhen An dropping off there too. So we had half a section going for a approximately 30sec walk to Paya Lebar MRT from the bus stop =.=" Winnie asks for Keith's phone, wanting a deja vu of what happened with Jiawei. Keith hands his phone over while Jiawei tries to persuade him otherwise. Winnie goes to one side and asks me to type again. I tell her to do it herself and walk all the way in front before Keith changes his mind and we couldn't find notes for Nokia. Disappointed, we try to make a break for it with his phone (XD)And Keith, looking angry, walked into the MRT station! We try to return the phone to him but he walks without a backward glance. We enlist Felicia's help in returning Keith's phone and on "high" mode, we go to Singpost;)
Couldn't decide on Macs, KFC and foodcourt since according to Jiawei , Macs is hot, KFC is cold and foodcourt is okay. And when we say, oh you want to eat KFC? He replies, no, I don't like cold. (DOTS.) So we eat food in the foodcourt(DUH!) I blast more than half my money on steak (which didn't taste nice) at 11am. It wasn't filling. Winnie noticed a yoghurt shop on our way in and we decide to eat there later. We prankcall Sandar(SORRY~!) and I vehemently deny that I am Hsin Tung and insist that I am Celine. She sees through me and I tell her I'm Charmaine. Winnie tells her we are at her condo and wants her to come down to open the gate as well as open up the games room for us to play pool(AHAHAH) Somehow I pretend to be Felicia shouting in the background angry at her.Hmm... I ended up being THREE people!Excluding myself. Not world record, but still.
After an early lunch, we eat MANGO yoghurt with strawberry topping cos Mac's ice cream is too fattening according to Winnie. It's exactly what I need, but oh well, we eat less fattening yoghurt from Slurp & Scoops. Or something like that. It tasted realllllllllllllly nice, but Jiawei couldn't stand the smell. I couldn't smell the yoghurt from the cup and he claims the smell is overwhelming!:O Winnie buys the same thing as me(:
We go back. Jiawei heads to the MRT station while Winnie walks over to the bus stop. I try to find my way home from Paya Lebar and decide to walk to City Plaza's bus stop to take what else, a bus. I catch up with Winnie and we talk along the way. Where we are supposed to walk in different directions, we find out we're both feeling guilty about the matter with Keith (we already sent an sms but he daos us!:@) so we call him. Nope, three calls on his mobile and no answer. We call his house and set it on loudspeaker. We apologise together over the phone and he tells us was pretending to be angry! We got cheated!:( We talk, 3 people on 2 lines for a minute. Winnie and I apologise profusely and finally we put the phone down. I hear someone laugh at us. Hmm... Were we funny/ cute/ weird? Okay weird. Since we were in front of a traffic light crossing and calling. Talking in sync! HAHAHAH.
So yeah. That's the end of a weekend. Did that style of writing confuse you?:O
I don't care. If you don't understand, reread :P
And blogger's way of showing text is irritating me. Hmmph.
<33,
HSINTUNG.
Desperate!
P.S Have a completely new url, with the skin created. Too lazy to code it, too lazy to relink and too lazy to care. HAHAH. Go, slacker!(:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Sunday, October 18, 2009
HSINTUNG IS BAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!
Ehehe. I'm feeling a tad bit guilty knowing it was AGES since I've updated.
Sorry it's just abit. XOXO. Blogging is boring for some random reason I don't really know.
Oh fine. I shall go randomly make a skin today and try to relink everyone(i think i'll die trying._.) and change link and go around saying new link and blahblahblah.
if there's one thing i really want to say, it's quoted from andrea:
"Even hair is complicated. Life sucks."
That's not exactly what she said, but close to it. :/
This occurred when andrea and I were discussing about hair, when to cut it, and how to cut it.
Sorry I've been obsessing about the style of hair XD
All the important EOYs have ended! (If you'd like to exclude ACC and HCL LC like I would)
Sorry to say, I never did attain my goal of not procrasinating. Slacking is just one natural ability that comes easily to me, I suppose:P Hopefully, I'll get over slacking soon @.@ Cos I really want to improve that crazy level position, and studied from 11 till 1am. Before an exam. Could someone whack me on the head for losing 3hours of which my brain cells recover the most quickly? Before an exam?!! But hey, IT'S OVER~! Planned outing with char and gorilla for tues, but turns up there's a random outing which has a lot of section zero people going, so it's like a section outing. However, there's probably only 3 or 4 (as of what I know now) who are going. YAY T.WINNIE! I HEART YOU FOR GOING~~ :D Of course I persuaded her, by telling her I was going;) Hehheh!
So, char is NICE and changed dates(<33) So I think we're going out another day. Yup.
Watch a movie! Yeah, saved a lot of money due to lack of recess hence I am sort of kind of rich. But I know I'll blast it all during outings. Let's see... Bowling,movies,arcade,iceskating(anyone?),rollerblading blah blah blah. I'm sorry I'm such a spendthrift. I always end up with no money:(
I really hate my blogskin right now :/
I suppose I'll change it soon.
And I guess that's the end of what happened that I actually recall! Which mostly are random ramblings so...????
I suppose that's the reason why I don't blog. It's a constant reminder of either #1: I don't have a life. OR #2: I can't recall. Which one do you think I fall under? HAHAH!(:
-HSINTUNG(:
♥HSINTUNG:D
