Thursday, November 26, 2009
lazy/happy/sad + sorries.
I PLANNED to type out events of Chongqing but I guess I'm such a procrastinator.
I MIGHT type it at a *certain point of my life* but it certainly isn't now.
Homework homework. ZZZ.
New friends in a new class.
Went escape/bowling/neoprint/arcade with netballers.
Escape was such a bore.
(And waste of time + $$ )
Bowling was fun!
(One strike + One spare; lost to beckie!)
Neoprint was uber cute.
(Camwhored after that too!)
Arcade was plain fun. As usual!^^
As cheerful as that might have sounded, here goes the sad part that has...
Discouraged me from writing a whole diary of ChongQing.
Since when have I felt so forlorn to know I've lost so many people I trusted?
Those quarrels are just killing me. I wish I knew the right way to resolve everything.
More than one friend is gone and left a void in my heart.
More than once, I wanted to take the first step.
I wanted to take the first step and apologise.
I made my stand and that person ignores.
I thought that person knew me.
but with that assumption I guess not.
I can't believe that person made such an assumption.
I am definitely ot that type of person.
I am definitely sorry for everything's that happened but I cant change what has happened.
THREE PROMISES.
THREE, DUMB PROMISES.
THREE, DUMB, BROKEN PROMISES.
Someone save me from this tornado/whirlwind of events I can't pluck myself out of.
♥HSINTUNG:D
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Boredom.
When you have school, you complain of lack of sleep.
When you have no school, you complain of boredom.
For me, I complain of boredom and lack of sleep in the hols. @.@
Stupid. First week of holidays and tomorrow is the only day I won't need to wake up early. RAWR.
I'm sleepy.
And I'm so bored.
I'm too lazy to pack for Chong Qing. Gah. I should be diligently packing right now. Ah whatever, I'll do it in half an hour.
Yesterday was screwed.
It was the only training I could go the whole thing for in Nov, and I was supposed to have sandcastle duty after at 2PM. That's what they said!
Yippee. In the afternoon of Monday, they said 9am. Awesome. I go for netball for half an hour.
Shoot.
So I go netball and half an hour is nothing but warm-ups for them. So I go and shoot.
Then I rushed off to change my fbts to PE SHORTS (haven' t worn those in ages) and damn, it was uncomfortable. The fact that I was wearing CCH socks to training was NOT helping.
I go over to concourse and got a little excited to go.
Then I tell Mr Chia JUST before we go, that I couldn't go next friday (the actual day of facilitating) and he said bye bye to me. Wow. Way to make a girl feel welcome.
So I smile and laugh it off and say bye.
I laugh at keith though, for having to suffer.
I go for netball, not explaining my situation to anyone in particular. Had some drills that were boring, also some fitness (ZZZ) I got pretty tired and my head pounded and I had the need to drink water often so training wasn't that enjoyable. In the end, I also felt pretty hungry. Everybody was like, "Are you okay?" thrice or something. Okay wait, that was Coach. LOL.
I finally get home, eating at Lucky and going crazy with the team and the juniors there. HAHAHAH. I NOW KNOW YOUR SECRETS, SERJEAN AND SIYU! :P
I won't tell council board. I think. HAHAH.
So okay, moving on.
I go home and Mum says we need go out get my jeans. We go shopping and I get so damn pooped. Recently went shopping often and I'm damn happy for all the new clothes I'm getting but I get so sick and tired of trying out clothes and GOSH, walking. Damn those slippers yesterday with no support. My feet hurt!
Today went to school, kenna pangsehed (okay, not really) by Mabel cos she was sick. Worked out the script. Blah blah blah. One hour later I leave school for home~
Saw Sudarno while walking out. He had some weird smile plastered on his face,haha.
Then I walk out halfway, it rained. I started running. Then it full-out poured. I full-out sprinted.
Whoo! First time running in the rain!
Went 7-11 buy some nice nice food, waited for mum, sat car go home.
Played computer till sian.
Cos I read all the fanfics I wanted to and it got sorta boring. I should get around to writing, or to playing maple at one point, when I'm desperate. Oh yeah, and relinking and skinning and graphic designing and trying audition. Ahuh.
When I'm up to it.
Cos I seriously have nothing to do, I'm blogging. What an awesome way to spend 10min. HAHAHA.
I'm so addicted to Jump then Fall and Future Love right now.
~HSINTUNG[:
♥HSINTUNG:D
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Advice I'm not so sure I follow myself.
Made it to the team.My name was the last to be said.
And I haven't said this to anyone, but I was so hoping to be in.
I was so hoping that I wouldn't be out.
I was so hoping, even if I thought I wouldn't get to play.
Cos if I don't make it, I'll break.
I can't imagine if I don't play.
At the end of every game, I feel so useless and I tear up cos I didn't get that chance.
Right now, I feel relieved to be in.
I promise I'll train sooooo hard to be up for it.
I'll shoot each time I go to school.
I'm going to shoot tomorrow too.
And maybe before training on Tuesday.
I feel pressured to.
I was so freaked out during the game when Coach said that how we played then would determine if we were in or out.
I was so freaked out that I couldn't shoot. Six chances and I had about three shots in? Ugh.
What happened to silents, really??!
Enough about emo-ing for netball.
Yesterday's duty was sooooooooooo fun.
Bimbo fighting with Cherylmine was sooooooo funny! HAHAHAH. She is so naturally bimbotic I tell you.
Whack her on the head and all her brain cells die!XD
Cherylmine and You Min are despo! Hock Jin and Li Kai saw for themselves:O
I hung out with the juniors during refreshments. They're really easy to talk to and very outgoing. These juniors rock!
Refreshments tasted awesome! A lot of people kop-ed food:O
Friday was PTC.
Gosh that duty was kinda boring but when there were little parents, everyone slacked(SHH!) and we sat down to chat.
Claudia was nice to talk to.
Guan Yu was awesome to bully(you should try bullying him one day!:D)
Winnie was very nice to talk to:D
I miss Winnie and See Kim, who've gone for Cambodia!Aww, it's only been one day:(
So in order to see them, I guess I'll try to go open house for the first hour? IDK! I'll just go mingle before going Chongqing.
YAY!
To the pessimist:
if you flash forward
see the awesome future
will you reconsider
think it all over
for the brighter future?
cos some things are worth living for
some things are worth believing in
faith and hope exist for some reason
not only for the insecure.
That's just my belief. Consider that for a new start. Be wary but don't turn weary.
(P.S That really seems like awesome material for a song.)
To the other sad person:
Everytime you smile, I smile
And everytime you shine, I'll shine for you.
-Jump then fall, Taylor Swift
I don't think we should live for the other person. Sure, follow his/her ups and downs.
But don't get so obsessed.
"Why are you so obsessed with me, boy?"-Obsessed, Mariah Carey
That's what they'll ask. You've probably been asked something like that before.
Sometimes people change. Relationships don't work out.
"People are people and sometimes we change our minds. But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.""It's the kind of end that you don't really wanna see."
"People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out. Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fallout..."
-Breathe, Taylor Swift
Live your own life and maybe it's time to move on. That person will stay in your heart forever.
Imprinted.
But you'll find another person who's more worth it, more dominant in your heart one day.
To both of you:
If you feel angry at me for writing this, you can smack me:P
<33,hsintung.
♥HSINTUNG:D
