Monday, May 31, 2010
What were you thinking? Not of me, obviously.
Sigh, after yesterday's half-optimistic post, I come back with a stupid sad post:(
What were you thinking when you read my text? Probably nothing. Or maybe 'don't disturb me'. I don't want to trust you anymore, even after you told me something that had a little hint of a promise to me. I can't stop myself from believing; from hoping. But you know what? You brought me right back down to earth again. Thank you SO much. I really needed a wake up call.
SL(student leadership) Camp tomorrow. Hope I will enjoy it, successfully learn the dances, manage to hit the notes for Don't Stop Believing, and not look awkward by carrying the stupid small bag + shoebag+ sleeping bag LOL.
Off to write, make icons or play maple. LAME I KNOW HAHAHA:D
(L), hsintung.
Labels: camp, hope, promise, sad, stupid, trust, wake up call, you
♥HSINTUNG:D
Sunday, May 30, 2010
If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.
aww people are asking me why i so emo haha. so must make a happy post here so those who care will know:
I'M FINE NOW:)I've been fine for quite long actually :X
It's thanks to a really good friend of mine(: She helped me get things thought out straight, think about if it really does matter. If I can't change something, I have to change my attitude to it (minor changes to Maya Angelou's quote!) so yes, that's exactly what I did. I'mma keep that quote to me closely, because it is really important for many things. Things didn't turn out better, things are more awkward, but at least I don't worry about it when that person's not around. Helps me think of other stuff which are more important. To me, at least(: Don't misunderstand, I still care. This is important to me too. But I've learnt that I cannot change it. So I'll move other stuff higher up the list.
Of course, other pressing matters have got me. Long-term problems that cannot be resolved. Not yet, at least. (How could you go offline at the part I wanted to hear the most?!) I really really want to work this out. I could help others work their problems out. Why can't I save my own problem, too? I give good advice sometimes, but I can't ever give any good advice to myself. I try my best to be so thoughtful. I try my hardest to talk. I try my hardest to understand. One person told me, you'd make a good g________, and that person is not b_______ material. But I can't get over it. I still think this problem can be resolved. I want it to be. Whether if it's the end or a new beginning.
